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Monday, 29 April 2002 08:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
taimatsu
Grr. I am just feeling tired and grumpy and annoyed with people and I don;t know how to get myself out of it. I hate being in this mood. I have been really irritable with jdc today but that is because he cannot think about anything but FUCKING POLITICS right now because the election is on Thursday. And he keeps nagging me to do stuff and i really can't be arsed. I am taking the sday off work to run his campaign rooms, I think that is enough in all fairness, especially as i am only doing it because I am (tenously) going out with him, rather than from any political conviction.
He has spent every night for the past eighteen months coplaining about my habit of going in and snuggling him as he turns the light off, and then last night I didn't (I think I was reading LJ or something) and he had the gall to be unhappy about it today.
I am experiencing another major mood swing with respect to relationships again. I don't understand what the hell is going on in my head. Thank God I at least have this much distance on it.
Oh yes, and I have spoent the last hour with a bunch of MORONS who want to do something really fun on May morning but are not prepoared to put in any effort to get it happening. There are four of us, and the two most senior have finals. I have a job. The other guy is new. I had to spend most of the meeting being very firm and direct and loud with people to keep them on-topic. And jdc kept coming in with his sodding leaflets and pie-charts and god knows what other political crap.
I actually screamed once. I really don't do that often. Shows what a state I was in. I have calmed down now, but I still feel like the world is out to get me.
It isn't, it isn't, it really is not.
I really hope we don't manage to get this damn bathtub sorted out, so I can just go watch DVDs with OxIRC people. I can't be arsed to fuck around with wheels and bathtubs and costumes, I really can't. But if I pull out it does ruin it for the rest of them, so I feel obliged. On the other hand, I have to go to work on May morning, and jdc will probably force me out leafleting that afternoon so I won't be able to sleep.
I don't know. I'm just all grumpy and angry and pissed off with jdc even though it is not really his fault. There are probably deep psychological reasons for this, some of which are knocking at the back of my head trying to come out into my brain, but I don't want to let them, I don't want to think about it now, because I can't cope with being more upset tonight.
That sounds as though I am lying around in a puddle of depression, but I am not, I'm just ANNOYED. With LIFE. And the UNIVERSE. And EVERYTHING.
He has spent every night for the past eighteen months coplaining about my habit of going in and snuggling him as he turns the light off, and then last night I didn't (I think I was reading LJ or something) and he had the gall to be unhappy about it today.
I am experiencing another major mood swing with respect to relationships again. I don't understand what the hell is going on in my head. Thank God I at least have this much distance on it.
Oh yes, and I have spoent the last hour with a bunch of MORONS who want to do something really fun on May morning but are not prepoared to put in any effort to get it happening. There are four of us, and the two most senior have finals. I have a job. The other guy is new. I had to spend most of the meeting being very firm and direct and loud with people to keep them on-topic. And jdc kept coming in with his sodding leaflets and pie-charts and god knows what other political crap.
I actually screamed once. I really don't do that often. Shows what a state I was in. I have calmed down now, but I still feel like the world is out to get me.
It isn't, it isn't, it really is not.
I really hope we don't manage to get this damn bathtub sorted out, so I can just go watch DVDs with OxIRC people. I can't be arsed to fuck around with wheels and bathtubs and costumes, I really can't. But if I pull out it does ruin it for the rest of them, so I feel obliged. On the other hand, I have to go to work on May morning, and jdc will probably force me out leafleting that afternoon so I won't be able to sleep.
I don't know. I'm just all grumpy and angry and pissed off with jdc even though it is not really his fault. There are probably deep psychological reasons for this, some of which are knocking at the back of my head trying to come out into my brain, but I don't want to let them, I don't want to think about it now, because I can't cope with being more upset tonight.
That sounds as though I am lying around in a puddle of depression, but I am not, I'm just ANNOYED. With LIFE. And the UNIVERSE. And EVERYTHING.
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Date: Monday, 29 April 2002 04:46 pm (UTC)And have lots of somewhat belated *hugs* in an attempt to appease the mood you are in.
Talk to you soon.