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I am not going to feel bad about the fact that I am not in work. I am not in work because I am in the process of having an IBS attack. I have had one unpleasant bathroom episode aleady this morning (which took me from shortly after Robert left to a way past the time *I* should have left) and I suspect another will be forthcoming, especially if I, God forbid, try to actually have any breakfast. I called in to work to explain the problem; I've said I'll call again as I hoped it would improve.

I have a medical condition which causes pain, distress and time-consuming and unpleasant physical symptoms, and I should not be feeling guilty about being genuinely ill.

So why do I feel as though I should be rushing out no matter what? I have a chronic condition which, while thankfully usually mild, does occasionally take over my life and prevent me doing things. Why do I keep feeling like it's not okay for me to be ill when I am genuinely not well?

GAAAAAAAAH.

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My stomach was somewhat improved by noon, but as I was starving by then and made the mistake of *eating something*, it has all gone wrong again.

I don't like this at all. :(

I also need a new job or a magic lottery win, as dead-end terminal pointlessness of the current employment is also getting to me. I want to do something that isn't office admin, but all my work experience is specifically in office admin. Suggestions welcome...