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Friday, 19 March 2004 06:44 pmEnogugh already!
If I thought yesterday was bad, today was a whole lot worse.
Screwed up several times in the morning (partly stupidity, partly forgetfulness, partly lack of knowledge or misunderstanding). Went to two training sessions, got told off in between them for my failings, cried all over the trainer after the second session, went back to work, had manager apologise for earlier outburst, still felt crap, began to suffer headache and weird visual disturbance involving blurred shimmerings over half my vision, had trouble reading computer screens.
Day improved slightly after that, but I still feel pretty shite (headache remains, also total terror over apparent lack of useful job skills) and I have my staff appraisal next week (which would be about a month before my actual probation appraisal).
I did manage to do some useful things this afternoon, but that really was the worst morning I have had for a very long time. I am a bit frightened by the visual problems too because I really couldn't see properly. I thought I might be getting a migraine but the head pain has been prety mild all day.
Bleah. I think I might sleep a lot this evening.
If I thought yesterday was bad, today was a whole lot worse.
Screwed up several times in the morning (partly stupidity, partly forgetfulness, partly lack of knowledge or misunderstanding). Went to two training sessions, got told off in between them for my failings, cried all over the trainer after the second session, went back to work, had manager apologise for earlier outburst, still felt crap, began to suffer headache and weird visual disturbance involving blurred shimmerings over half my vision, had trouble reading computer screens.
Day improved slightly after that, but I still feel pretty shite (headache remains, also total terror over apparent lack of useful job skills) and I have my staff appraisal next week (which would be about a month before my actual probation appraisal).
I did manage to do some useful things this afternoon, but that really was the worst morning I have had for a very long time. I am a bit frightened by the visual problems too because I really couldn't see properly. I thought I might be getting a migraine but the head pain has been prety mild all day.
Bleah. I think I might sleep a lot this evening.