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Tuesday, 20 May 2003 01:11 pmam in towering rage of doom. hate work, hate anal-retentive procedures which then aren't adhered to, hate being told to do tasks with inadequate equipment so I spend ages worrying about things I shouldn't need to, hate being pushed around and made to feel like a spare part, then nagged when not doing things just right. Really want to just sod off and go home. have five minutes of lunch left.
I would try to calmly explain my problems with this morning's happenings to my team leader, but I would just end up crying or otherwise making a fool of myself. Instead, I just paste on the plastic smile, nod a lot, and say 'okay!' in a neutral tone.
Fun.
(God, am *so* tempted to just email my boss and tell him I've had enough for today and am going home. I took lunch early because all the being shoved around had sent me onto the edge of wild stress attacks, and I just had to calm down, and now I'm being told off again for taking lunch at an awkward time. I hate this place so much.)
I would try to calmly explain my problems with this morning's happenings to my team leader, but I would just end up crying or otherwise making a fool of myself. Instead, I just paste on the plastic smile, nod a lot, and say 'okay!' in a neutral tone.
Fun.
(God, am *so* tempted to just email my boss and tell him I've had enough for today and am going home. I took lunch early because all the being shoved around had sent me onto the edge of wild stress attacks, and I just had to calm down, and now I'm being told off again for taking lunch at an awkward time. I hate this place so much.)